এখানের সব কথা কালিদাস এর লেখা নয়, বা বলা ও নয় | সব কথা কি হয়ত কোনো কোথায় নয় | তবে "কহেন কবি কালিদাস" কেন ? এখানে আমি নিজে কালিদাস হওয়ার চেষ্টা চালিয়েছি | কিন্তু সত্যি সত্যি তো হওয়ার সাধ্য নেই তাই টুকলি মেরেছি যখন যেখান থেকে পেরেছি ! এখন বাঙ্গালোরে ভরা বর্ষা | সুয্যি মামা তো ডুব দিয়েছেন সেই কোন মেঘের আড়ালে | কাপড় ধুয়ে শোকানো হয়ে গেছে মহা গেনজাম এর ব্যপার | কিন্তু সে সব এ তো আর কবিত্ব আসে না | office এর কাঁচের জানালা দিয়ে মাঝে মধ্যে বাইরে তাকিয়ে যখন মেঘলা আকাশ দেখি তখন হয়ত বা মনে হয় কবিতার খাতা নিয়ে প্রেয়সীর মুখের ওপর মেঘে চাপা সূর্যের যে নরম ছায়াহীন আলো এসে পড়েছে তার বর্ণনা করি | কিন্তু কবি কবি ভাব থাকলে ও ছন্দ বলে যে একটা জিনিস আছে সেটা আমার মাথা থেকে কিছুতেই বের হয় না | তখন আদর এর সাথে বাঁদর এর মিল দিয়ে কাব্য রচনার প্রয়াস করতে হয় | সে যে কবিতা লেখা হয় তা পড়লে, আমার বউ আমাকে সোহাগ করে ইলিশ আর খিচুরী রেঁধে দেবার বদলে ঝাটা নিয়ে তাড়া করবে | তাই এই বর্ষায় কাব্য চর্চা মাথায় তুলে কোমর বেঁধে লেগেছি technical পড়াশোনা নিয়ে | আর কিছু না হোক চাকরি তে উন্নতি তো হবে !
কবিতা গুলো আর এ যাত্রায় ছাপালাম না | সেটা পরের বারের জন্যে তলা রইলো |
Sorry for all my non-Bengali readers. This post couldn't be written in any other language.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
The saleswoman
No, I'm not talking about the beautiful, glamorous, high flying sales girl at a departmental store. Not even the sales girls who are working behind counters with a dress and a badge to distinguish them from customers. Not even those door to door sales girls who try to persuade you to their last limit. This is about the women I see when the traffic signals go RED and you curse yourself, the traffic system and then the Goddamn system of the country. I do that, too.
Then one day, let it be today, or let it be any day, any day at all - I look out the window and look at some desperate people trying to make their living out of our misery (that's so ironic, isn't it?). Some beggars, some eunuchs (the third sex people), some little girls and boys trying to do gymnastic and grab your attention. Some selling toys, some food, some fruit and many others. Well obviously the Hijras gather most of the attention and the money, too with little effort, but to stand in us and clap (i.e. if you don't consider being a social outcast a major disadvantage, they are doing good).
They all are there, and like many other days they never boarded my thought train. Then, today I saw something, that I've seen many times before - but with a new eye. A woman selling colored balloons shaped as beautiful toys, butterflies and they were so clean and attractive. But the woman was in the shabbiest dress that I've seen on these signals. The sudden contrast of the merchant and the merchandise made me feel eerie. A cold shudder went through my spine. Her dress says it all - she doesn't have a decent living, no decent place to keep those beautiful balloons, may be a gang of little hungry children hanging around her all the time. I just wondered how she managed to keep those balloons so clean? I wonder what she thinks when she has to deny her youngest one those toys?
I'm not a philosopher. I'm not an activist. I can only think and write on this blog, which no one reads. But at least this unloads my mind and I can go back to my life.
Then one day, let it be today, or let it be any day, any day at all - I look out the window and look at some desperate people trying to make their living out of our misery (that's so ironic, isn't it?). Some beggars, some eunuchs (the third sex people), some little girls and boys trying to do gymnastic and grab your attention. Some selling toys, some food, some fruit and many others. Well obviously the Hijras gather most of the attention and the money, too with little effort, but to stand in us and clap (i.e. if you don't consider being a social outcast a major disadvantage, they are doing good).
They all are there, and like many other days they never boarded my thought train. Then, today I saw something, that I've seen many times before - but with a new eye. A woman selling colored balloons shaped as beautiful toys, butterflies and they were so clean and attractive. But the woman was in the shabbiest dress that I've seen on these signals. The sudden contrast of the merchant and the merchandise made me feel eerie. A cold shudder went through my spine. Her dress says it all - she doesn't have a decent living, no decent place to keep those beautiful balloons, may be a gang of little hungry children hanging around her all the time. I just wondered how she managed to keep those balloons so clean? I wonder what she thinks when she has to deny her youngest one those toys?
I'm not a philosopher. I'm not an activist. I can only think and write on this blog, which no one reads. But at least this unloads my mind and I can go back to my life.
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